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My Last Goodbye

2006-08-12T02:18:17-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 205, Reviews: 4, Complete

Written in May. (Was that that long ago) I still find this poem highly disturbing... and yes, the last part refers to the fictionpress people with their reviews and support, last year, the ones of you who still remain to read this. Is as title. Except obv

equation

2006-08-12T02:13:09-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 160, Reviews: 2, Complete

Written a few months ago. Unlike a lot of my other stuff, this isn't really centred around the angsty madness of last year. It's centred around the illness that provoked... the events of last year. I guess a lot of it's subtle and glossed over... but; thi

The Joyous Loss Of Remembrance

2006-08-12T02:07:36-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 70, Reviews: 1, Complete

A short thing I wrote around a month ago, regarding... a stiuation I'd still rather not think about. Mood = title.

Ripped

2006-08-10T02:01:34-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 4, Words: 468, Reviews: 3, Complete

A poem in 4 parts - my most recent work... written today. I just wrote, and some of it's maybe not that good, but that's why I kept writing... the last part's like the summary, dismayed... I'm not glad of the angst. R&R please...

fictionpress

2006-05-20T00:28:04-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 129, Reviews: 9, Complete

I was thinking of fictionpress when i wrote this. I guess this is really my experiences, my take on it. I like to think it's insightful. It's certainly different to what you might think.

A Dream Of Normality

2006-02-22T23:59:21-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 136, Reviews: 2, Complete

I know it's not really like my other stuff... but my poetry reflects me, so if I crack, my poetry will drift and jar. It's layered, and probably confusing. But, even so...

Sixteen

2006-02-22T23:50:46-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 275, Reviews: 3, Complete

A sort-of sequel to 'Fifteen'. It's drifting, and... I haven't written poetry for such a long time. But I wrote this. ...

Talking to

2005-12-12T20:15:11-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: T
Angst/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 740, Reviews: 2, Complete

A conversation with someone... when you read the AN you will know what I mean when I say this is a true story. I stood there, and talked, and talked, and let out everything...

The Last Exam

2005-11-27T16:38:20-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 302, Reviews: 2, Complete

This isn't really about the exam. It's thoughts of mine, I just sat down and wrote 'em. This doesn't express my feelings as well as I wanted. I havn't updated for ages, ne?

Night World

2005-07-15T01:22:39-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 233, Reviews: 10, Complete

This is not about dreams/nightmares; more it is about, uh... well, me, at night. I don't sleep much, instead I... (read poem) Thoughts and emotions.

Fifteen

2005-07-05T01:34:08-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 251, Reviews: 9, Complete

This poem was written in the same sort of mind as 'Since February'. "I never asked to be fifteen..."

Since February

2005-06-27T02:12:01-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 309, Reviews: 6, Complete

Me thinking about my life 'since February'. I was feeling down because it hasn't really been brilliant so I wrote a poem about it... as usual.

Almost

2005-06-27T02:06:22-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 200, Reviews: 2, Complete

I wrote this the night before I wrote 'Nightmare Terror', but only just typed it up >.< More of my angsty writings about darkness, and needing to escape... more true feelings & emotions...

Nightmare Terror

2005-06-20T01:31:30-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: T
Horror
Chapters: 1, Words: 190, Reviews: 3, Complete

As title. Under Horror because.. well, it goes briefly over a few of my more... horrifying nightmares. I wrote this coz my parents are trying to force me to go to sleep at a normal time, and I don't like having much sleep coz of.. as described in poem.

What Is The Point

2005-06-12T01:20:31-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 361, Reviews: 6, Complete

I wrote this poem over a month ago but am going to put it up even so because it still represents how I feel about my situation. Most people will not know what I'm going on about but... yes. More of the dp/dr also.

Spiralling

2005-06-11T02:54:06-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 177, Reviews: 4, Complete

The end of this poem is very abrupt, but it is how I felt at the time and place of writing, which was sometime past midnight, sitting in my open window in the night.

Pointless Trying

2005-06-11T02:02:22-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 228, Reviews: 3, Complete

This is a mix of ideas and feelings of mine, woven into a poem. I was semi-depersonalised at the time of writing, which explains some of the odder ideas. It was also written very late (or early). But I don't think it's bad, even so.

Behind Closed Lids

2005-06-11T01:52:59-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 181, Reviews: 4, Complete

This has some of the same ideas as in 'Keeping Me Sane', about not facing reality. Ideas about staying in darkness...

Façade

2005-06-10T03:12:15-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 225, Reviews: 5, Complete

Just an idea of mine. This was inspired by a brief drawing I did of an ornate house FRONT only- a facade- with flames shooting out from behind. (read the poem and understand.)

Owl Sanctuary

2005-06-07T01:17:58-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 48, Reviews: 4, Complete

This was a poem I wrote when I was 12, and it won 1st prize and $100 in a regional poetry competition. Just thought I'd post it for all to see ;)

Unanswerable Questions

2005-05-22T00:36:36-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K
General/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 301, Reviews: 7, Complete

I have depersonalisation/derealisation and this poem was written in the midst of one of the times it was happening... handy hint: DON'T have dp/dr. It makes your life complete hell. (dp is caused by anxiety, so, therefore, don't be anxious.)

Circle Of Madness

2005-05-22T00:29:44-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst/General
Chapters: 3, Words: 275, Reviews: 10, Complete

This is a set of 3 poems written in the night. They're not my best work, and they may not make much sense, but they represent the circle of madness I go round and round in.

Keeping Me Sane

2005-05-22T00:20:59-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 222, Reviews: 5, Complete

This poem... is me. All I can say. This poem sums up a lot of who I am right now.

Circle Of Death

2005-05-22T00:12:56-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 184, Reviews: 3, Complete

Well... another angsty, confused poem. I wrote this one in the day but had the overall idea sometime in the early morning. It's basically a lot of (somewhat disturbing) ideas of mine about... death.

Leave Me Alone

2005-05-22T00:03:32-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Friendship
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 148, Reviews: 6, Complete

Yet another about my EXfriend, who sent me a casual txt the other day which hacked me off coz I know she doesn't care about me, it's just her nasty group wanting to see what I'm up to.

The Dragon

2005-04-16T23:43:37-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst/Fantasy
Chapters: 1, Words: 145, Reviews: 13, Complete

Comparison between me and a dragon.

Explosive

2005-03-23T01:27:46-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 172, Reviews: 16, Complete

I tend to snap really easily...

SelfDiscovery

2005-03-23T01:22:14-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 465, Reviews: 8, Complete

My gosh, it's not an angsty poem. Now how boring is that. It's just this, uh, poem, about... oh I give up on these silly summaries. Read the title. Then read the poem.

I'm Not Anorexic

2005-03-23T01:18:53-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 482, Reviews: 8, Complete

Oh, well, yeah, my own take on anorexia, based on my own experiences. It's pretty long and crappy and I don't know why I'm putting it up, but, yeah. R&R if you like.

Memory Scars

2005-03-23T01:16:54-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 406, Reviews: 8, Complete

Um... do I have to write a summary? Title pretty much says all.

Pessimism

2005-03-23T01:14:27-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 322, Reviews: 2, Complete

All these latest poems I have been putting up have been all very angsty and moody, and this one is no exception... title says all, btw. My pessimistic nature awakens...

Angst Filled Anger

2005-03-23T01:12:25-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 175, Reviews: 4, Complete

I haven't got a clue what this one is about! I was in a random, angry, angst, depressing mood when I wrote it. Rating for content and swearing. Note that I was in a random mood: some of it doesn't make the slightest bit of sense.

Questioning My Sanity

2005-03-23T01:09:29-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: T
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 491, Reviews: 3, Complete

Well... everyone does one at some stage or other... a poem about cutting! This, however, is not about cutting in the usual sense, just my own take on it... or my own experiences... current ones, sadly.

Sleep, Little One

2005-03-23T01:02:17-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: T
Angst/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 145, Reviews: 4, Complete

Title is VERY misleading, check the rating. Pretty dark poem, no happy end either- ye have been warned. I’m just depressed. This was scrawled on a scrap of paper at bout 1 in morn, if that explains anything.

One Day

2005-03-10T21:46:48-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 180, Reviews: 9, Complete

This would be the most random of my works, even I'm not really sure what it's about. What was in the bottle anyway? There will be some confusing bits in it which I was going to extend on but couldn't figure out how, so... but for some reason I think it's

Perfection

2005-03-10T21:41:03-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 490, Reviews: 4, Complete

Okay, I wrote this in Year 9 (I think it's year 8 in America? NZyr 9) and I'm yr11 (USyr10) now, but I just thought I'd post it and see what people thought of it. It's not really up to the standard of my current writing, but R&R anyway! Plz!

Trapped

2005-03-10T21:38:35-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 652, Reviews: 2, Complete

I wrote this very randomly, just sat down at the computer and wrote it then saved it. Why don't they bother to try...?

Hurt Once Too Many

2005-03-10T21:36:37-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 301, Reviews: 5, Complete

I would have liked this to be 'Life/Friendship' but you can't do that, so, 'Life' it is. I'm angry at the world today. After a while, you never trust anyone again...

No Going Back

2005-03-10T21:33:15-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Friendship
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 339, Reviews: 3, Complete

I keep on trying to make her be my friend again... but now I've realised there's no going back.

Control

2005-03-10T21:25:42-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Friendship
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 360, Reviews: 4, Complete

Being, uh, controlled... Title says all. Just read!

Let The Sky Swallow Me

2005-03-10T20:07:22-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 123, Reviews: 3, Complete

I wrote this at around one in the morning, just feeling a little confused and depressed.

Cutting Off Her Wings

2005-03-10T19:56:56-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 318, Reviews: 5, Complete

Ummm... yeah, doesn't title say all? It's a cliched expression, yes, but I just felt like writing on it. Sort of angry, some of my thoughts... yeah.

No Animals Were Harmed?

2005-02-21T22:16:46-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Essay
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 799, Reviews: 7, Complete

Okay. This is an essay on animal rights. It won $250 in a competition which I won't bother to explain, but if you are living in NZ (unlikely I know) you should know it... College Herald. (NZ Herald)

What They Don't Know

2005-02-19T23:41:59-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K+
Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 487, Reviews: 15, Complete

A little dark, title pretty much sums it up. Everyone thinks they know me, but they really have no idea...

You Could Dream

2005-02-18T12:04:55-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
War
English, Rated: K
General
Chapters: 1, Words: 119, Reviews: 8, Complete

Umm... A look at a war-torn world, so awful that you don't want to be there at all... but you could dream...

Do You Not Realise

2005-02-18T11:53:58-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Friendship
English, Rated: K+
General/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 302, Reviews: 8, Complete

A poem "for" my ex-best-friend, who threw her lot in with the nastiest girls I know, betraying me without a care. Grr. PG for mild language. Extremely mild language

Sanctuary

2005-02-15T22:36:58-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
General
English, Rated: K
General/General
Chapters: 1, Words: 744, Reviews: 4, Complete

A girl who is lonely, walking through a forest that happens to belong to a nasty girl at school. This is a terrible summary. I'll change it sometime. ONE-SHOT Please review! The story's better than the summary. HOD English at my school loved it.

Solitude

2005-02-15T22:25:22-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Life
English, Rated: K
Angst/General
Chapters: 1, Words: 66, Reviews: 7, Complete

This is a poem I wrote when my life had taken a turn for the worse, about withdrawing into yourself to escape reality. I like reviews! Hint hint.

Goodbye Tseer

2005-02-07T22:30:00-08:00

Author: thedarkthatiwas
Fantasy
English, Rated: K
Fantasy/General
Chapters: 1, Words: 1,852, Reviews: 3, Complete

SHORTENED SUMMARY// A girl is walking through the dense woods near her home when she discovers a creature unlike any she has ever seen before. 5 years later, she receives a vision which tells her to go back to the same place. ONE SHOT Please review!