Whoa. That was amazing.
I could really sympathize, and the imagery was great, too. Love it, love it, LOVE IT...going on favorites, this is.
And if it's any consolation, I can relate, except in my case I've lost my relationship with my mother. Keep up the good work.

god steph!!
that was so amazing

i could never writhe that well even if i tried for the rest of my life!!

The style's not quite up to your usual standard, but when you're expressing real feelings it's hard to make them fit into a rigid structure. Still it was very powerful and really gets the point across well - keep it up :)

Hey, I've been there - big time. The emotion in this piece is good and very moving for one who knows. Keep writing, and don't forget you ARE somebody special (dad or not)! :)