Yeah, sorry. The only reason i started up is because you dissed on that one story, and I just put that on their really quick last year to see if it worked, i was just testing out Fiction Press, at that time though it was Fan Fiction. Sory for dissing you, i didn't even read your stories, i was just getting back at you. Also sorry that I called you a few names. I was gonna call a truce anyway.

P.S. You can diss on people really well.

Yeah, sorry. The only reason i started up is because you dissed on that one story, and I just put that on their really quick last year to see if it worked, i was just testing out Fiction Press, at that time though it was Fan Fiction. Sory for dissing you, i didn't even read your stories, i was just getting back at you. Also sorry that I called you a few names. I was gonna call a truce anyway.

P.S. You can diss on people really well.

So you're admitting you are a ** then? As you said, at least you have the balls, right? Does it come with anything else i need to know about? If not, or if so, it doesnt matter, keep your own little joyrides to yourself, got that? Now leave me the ** alone!...(**)...

I have that same metamorphical wall. I have been extremely self-conscious of myself ever since I was like four. People would find that shyness cute when your younger, but as you start getting older it annoys them. I can't seem to find the root of my anxiety towards boys. Well, actually I'm scared of anything that can cause me emotional pain. I'm scared to death of someone or something hurting me. You would think that someone with this level of paranoia had a tramautic event to trigger this. But no, I can't think of anything that would trigger this. You know like a rape, or abuse.

Fifteen years is still young. Boys at your age are immature and most of them only care about about your looks.

wow this sounds like me and how i am i am overweight b/c i do the same thing it just seems to numb the pain for a short while and you don't care what your doing or what happened all your worried about is the food and when your done the pain just comes back i swear its not fair but its just how some of us are and its not that i can't throw it back up but the thought of being bullemic scares me so i don't don't do anything after i eat right now i have simpley given up hope on ever losing weight b/c eating is a way to stop the pain even if is for a short whil updatte soon and send me an e-mail mandolin2259@yahoo.com well got to go

This is turning out very good. It's easy to read and it makes me symphatize with your problems. I'm sorta in the beginning phase of a binge-eater. It's not too noticeable(well, yet). It's so easy and comforting to drown your problems by eating that tub of ice cream in the fridge. Yeah, I don't have the audacity to actually make myself throw up. I've tried but I can't myself do it. I don't want to do it but I hate that feeling after binging. You're screaming at yourself in your mind. You feel so stupid and fat and ugly and hopeless. It's hard to stop. My problems will never go away and well, that's not exactly reassuring.

I really like this so far. It's a topic that is not especially common in fiction. I really look forward to reading more.