Jesus will love you no matter what you do. He may not like how you act or that you hurt yourself, but you can't do anything to make Him not love you. No one else can either. I used to cut myself too.

you know, you don't have to wear a dress and a cross to be a christian...

sounds like you really want and need Jesus, and that's the first and biggest step to make.

Good luck to you in your search for God.

I thought your poem was really good.

I shouldn't have been stupid enough to read that- I'm crying now.
I have felt that way so many times- not so extreme; I'm still a "good kid"- but it would all be so much easier if there was someone we could go to who would forgive all our sins and let us have a perfect (after)life. I just can't believe there is... I totally agree with you and feel your emotion, etc.

Again, your style is so original and wonderful, even on such a terrible topic.