I can definately relate to this, where you can't get yourself to do anything even when you want to, and it seems like you're wasting time but can't do anything about it... That's what I got out of this anyways. I like it. You put it into words very well.
I really like it, its a great poem, with an awesome bunch of words in it. I like how u used the "lazy rain", its intresting and new. Great poem, keep it up:)