OK, that is almost unbearably sad. And you know why? Because it has some truth. I feel like that sometimes. *cough cough* OK, maybe slightly more. But I know that if you are a dreamer then your dreams can come true. The one thing you need is motivation. Hope, yes, but you need to DO. Some of your things may not be possible. But find the things that are are reach for them. If you are content with helping others to the moon, then by all means, do so! But if you yourself want to get there, then reach! You may not find what you were seeking, but something even better. "Reach for the moon. Even if you miss you will land among the stars" (~ anonymous). So reach!

wow, very perceptive, good use of allusions. I'm very envious of your writing skills. you have a very expressive, fluent way with words, and i definitely get a great visualisation of this. great job.
you're really inspiring. don't ever worry about that.
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