"Guilt and pity is all that ties people to me anymore" I would have to disagree with this statement. However, I can see how it might appear that way at times. Yes the sentence is worth reading because it lets that misery and despair out of your heart so it does not take root permanently. Pray for hope, for peace, and for understanding. The maturity will be clearer in hindsight, probably not for years to come, but it is still there. I have seen it. I believe in you. None of your syllables are bloated wastes. Write for yourself foremost. Then write for others if you so choose, but for yourself and your own well-being first. Jason