As a formor fighter, warrior, protector, hero, i can say this with utmost certainty: i hate war. Like acting,i may have been good at combat but i hated fighting all the time. Yes i followed orders, i did what i was directed to do but i hated it! I wish that war could never exist, but because this world is the way it is, it has to exist. Its like pain, after getting hurt though. Yes there may be a scar, an unpleasant memory and maybe some tramatizing, but it will never last forever. I remember when you wrote this, vividly. You will be a great writer someday.