Aw...
it's sad, but rather cute at the same time...

Title: Heaven's a Lie
Author: The Living Desolate
Lyrics and Music by: Lacuna Coil
...Oh no,
here it is again...
Striding down the halls I can fear rake itself over my heart and stomache, no different from any other day. I've come to terms with the fealing by now. Sad that its so familiar. I fear one whom I've given all reason to fear me. Fate is strange and twisted in its own sadistic way sometimes.
...I need to know
when I will fall in decay...
I know I'm only building myself up for a let down every morning, and yet I do nothing about it. There's still a sliver of hope there that one day I'll forget it all, everything.
...Something wrong
with every plan of my life
I didn't really notice that you've been here...
I took for granted all those things, and I take for granted all the memories I have of them now. But the memories are painful and cause for dispair, why would I want them still, even if they are of you?
...Dolefully desired...
I'll always miss the laughter, always longfor the smiles. Though I know it poisons me slowly, I would still drink from your cup had I the chance.
...Destiny of a lie...
Sometimes when I look back on it in foolishness I wish I was just dreaming all this. That one day I'll wake and find I've been decieving me, for you would never do this to me. Would you?
...Set me free
your heaven's a lie...
This is a harsh slap towards reality, to find yourself wrong all along. I know its real, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. What was once bliss is now only sugar coated daggers. Pierce me then.
...set me free with your love
set me free...
Wake me. Undertake me. For I feel numb and cannot possible be living. It is death to long for you, it is death to live without you.
...Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
why did I choose to betray you...
What am I without my confidant? Unconfiding and untrusting I find myself thrust into a world in which I have nowhere to run. No where to hide. Vaguely I almost wonder what I had done to you to do this to me. Or had you no reason to your cause?
...Something wrong
with all the plans of my life...
Had I misjudged you all along? Create for myself the wrong kind of life. Or had your malice grown in me, resentment been bred by my own behavior?
...I didn't realize that you've been here..
Had I just refused to seen how much you'd grown apart from me... Had I refused to see the changs and simply painting my own world of rose colored glass for you to be chained to with me?
...Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
Set me free...
My shoulder brushes against yours as we pass, snapping me into reality and spinning me around. This is the closest we've physically stood in months and it sends electirc jolts through me. For a moment I forget to breathe and the past take me over as I wait for you to smile.
...your heaven's a lie...
But you just walk on.
...set me free with your love
set me free...
Numbly I watch you sink into the crowd. My heart sinks, my stomache falls from where it'd crept into my throat. In the here and now you and I do not belong together I remind myself of this, and yet it makes no difference.
...Set me free your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free...
Becuase I still want you.
...Dolefully desired...
Even through the pain I want you. Even through the nightmares. Even through the uncertain future.
...Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free...
Were you to ask it I'd run to your side.
...Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free...
But were you to do this to me again, I'd fall from grace.
...Set me free
your heaven's a lie...
So I digress, do I trade hellish grace without you for graceless heaven with you?
...set me free with your love
set me free...

Awe! Elliott, that was so sweet! And what do you mean by "slash"? You were dating a guy?! Actually, it kinda reminded me of Issa... no fense. Sayanora!
-Elizabeth

wow...that was pretty good. i like it. a bit too deep for me tho (my blonde). its really good

"Roel" wrote a story! Yay! ^.^
Well, I really liked this. After the first paragraph, I felt very... sad. Yes, sad. I was doing that thing where my eyes get big, my mouth hangs open and I say, "AW!" over and over again to hide my sadness.
I failed miserably.
Great job! Keep it up! ^.^
Peace, love and music,
TheCrazyClarinetist
PS EVANESCENCE ROCKS! I ESPECIALLY liked this fic because it used an Evvy song that I am particularly fond of and can totally relate to... but then again, I can relate to all of their songs, even the ones that aren't on "Fallen"... which is why I love them so much... Okay, enough ranting...