No words can describe. simply beautiful.

A quite dark poem. I really liked the message that you sent through it, it's very relatable. It's hard trying to prove that you're serious when you've always joked around, people never take you seriously and you feel as though you need to hold up your disguise of being happy, you must be happy, life must be perfect because you're always laughing. ^_^ Been there, done that. Anyawy, your rhyme scheme was pat, no problems there, although your meter did seem a bit off in places. Sometimes differentiations in the meter of a poem are lost from writer to reader, which is normal. Other than that, you need some kind of punctuation. If it was to be read how it was written, you would run straight through the entire poem with no pauses, which isn't how the poem flowed when I read it. Commas at the ends of lines to indicate pauses would be very helpful. ^_^ Overall, it was a fantastic poem. You've made words dance again. Keep up the good work.
Take care,
Aya

::quiet:: damn tonya. if you ever feel like not joking and whatever, that's like...damn. don't do it if your heart isn't in it...like, wow, personally i never expected you to be like, my lil monkey to put on the clown hat and start juggling. XD.

Ironic. Great poem.