The beginning is a little bit rough ("When I was sixteen..."), but it picks up part way through. What a strange compulsion, to be suicidal without wanting to die. You've turned an overdone theme into something new - kudos.

One little edit, though: when you quote the poetry lines (the first set of italics), it should be "too" rather than "to." Yeah, I'm kind of a grammar freak. :)

I liked it. I got really worried for a bit there that she was going to jump, but I'm glad she didn't.

this was really good. i love your word usage *i dont think i spelled that right...usage, useage...i dont know...* was great, and the ideas in this was cool. good work!_