let me tell u ur so not alone i think like that all the time it get scary sum times but hey u learn too deal right? well im glad im not alone cuz im the kinda person who thinks like that i du realy stupid stuff like drugs...dont do them id be screwed if my job drug tested me i hope they dont im trin to stop but hey and i used to be a cutter and all i thought bout was death like goin on a killin spree then killin my self then no one would mess with me but id be dead and it would teach them a lession not to mess with the kid that seems happy on the out side wile there torchered on the inside...