so it won't let me log in, so you'll have to forgive the anonymous review. i really love this -- i had tears in my eyes, not because it was beautifully written (i can tell you can write, though, easily), but because of the simple truth of it. i'm in love with a guy i met online too (we had a relationship a few years ago but i broke it off because i thought it was a strong thing to do, but i regret it now). i've found him and started a friendship with him again. i'm so glad that you're willing to wait for your boyfriend -- that shows how much you love him. it's true that it hurts that you can't touch him and be there for him -- trust me, i know. i can really relate to this. thanks for actually pointing out the good side instead of the negatives!

*sniff* You sound like me.

Good essay, too, I agree.

--GD