I'm the one that should apologize...

You know, I find it really funny, that although I keep trying to run away, I still find myself back where I started. No matter how I try to escape (The Ones I hate and The Ones I love) by some strange act of fate I find myself still in the middle of it. I know you care for me and you have to know I care for you too, but when I run away, I know very well that there are people who care for me, and though I try to escape to avoid hurting them in the future, it only seems to hurt them more when I attempt to leave. I guess I stuck here, whether I or anyone likes it or not.

You think that you were never there for me, and you could'nt help, but to tell the truth, you were always the one to help the most. You were the only one that hasn't (yet) told me, that what I did was wrong, and that my parents really do care for me, and I should just suck it up and take it for the next 11 or so months. And (as this entry of yours is a great example) you were always one to make me laugh even in times of great seriousness, and when I really needed it. Please don't apologize, you did best (You acted even without your knowledge). At least in my eyes. There's nothing you need to do except to be yourself. There will be a day when we will have to part permanently, I guess I was a fool for attempting to bring it about sooner than God destined it.

I guess I'm back, whether of my own will or otherwise, so I'll see you around, even if I may be a slight bit more distant than I already have been. What am I looking for in life you ask? It would be a lie for me to say that I don't know, yet it wouldn't be prudent for me to tell you. Just know, that we all have our dreams, they're like birthday wishes. If you tell someone, they'll be whisked away like smoke trailing from a dying flame.