whoa... speechless... I think I understand what you meant with this... someone unreachable... m... sounds familiar... my favorite part is the paragraph: "I would like to say I loved him in all the ways you could love a person" if made my heart bleed. and now it's swollen..

By the way, Happy B-Day.. well, almost.LovePam

PS. "Sometimes he brought the sounds of his throat to incredible crescendos, loud as fireworks" are you thinking about Brendon too?