"It's me, Em.Amanda's on the phone with me right now, and I CAN'T BEGIN to describe how hurt she is..how much you just killed her...YOu know your poetry sucks. You suck. and amanda's crying (dying on the inside) right now because of you. Her favorite author, that she loves most of all, now has forsaken her for you. Never Forget What i Lost, Alison, seems to have lost respect for amanda, for her pain and poetry, for your **. I can't belive it, and right now amanda's sobbing and telling me how hard she's worked, that she's only wanted to please alison, all her writing has been FOR alison, for gods sake, and how could Ellen hurt her like this?

Ellen, amanda is more ** than I've ever heard her, and more hurt as well. Good job. Good ** job, you b*tch. i told you. I told you you'd hurt her and that I was better for her, and I was right. I was SO right. I hate myself for not stealing her when I had the chance. i hate myself for not protecting her. But just so you know, as of now, Amanda is mine. i WILL convince her to break up with you, to hurt you like you hurt her. You messed up big time this time, princess.

Now that Alison has basically told Amanda that you're more important as a writer, amanda has started cutting again. she's also started writing all that angst again. you'll have to pay, and hopefully breaking your heart will break the connection between you two.

Stop reviewing Alison! Stop associating with her! You're just breaking amanda's heart even more. Maybe you never knew-Amanda was in love with Alison. Good job, you stupid freak."

what is this? can you please tell me what's going on? who is amanda? whoever she is, i'm positive that i haven't lost any respect for her if she's one of my favorite authors. i love a lot of people's writing. is this some kind of joke? if i knew who amanda was, i could talk to her. i don't know what you're talking about! how did i get involved in this? i don't know what i did! all i did was review this theatrical rhapsodies' person's writing because i thought it was good, how did i hurt someone by doing that? WHO IS AMANDA? what is going on? if i knew who this person was i could communicate outside of fictionpress or something through quizilla or anything just to figure out what's going on. WHAT THE HELL DID I DO? how did i tell someone that they're more important as a writer than someone else? who is amanda, and what is going on? what? who ... what is going on? please tell me soon, because i am extremely confused and upset and i don't know what to make of this. normally i would just assume it was about someone else but it's MY screen name and MY first name and i don't know what's going on! please tell me. i'm not ** off at all, i'm upset and if i really hurt someone so badly ... how did i manage to do it? i have no idea what's going on ... and who the hell is amanda? what's her fictionpress name?

this poem is amazing as always, but ... what.is.going.on?

Wooah. lol... you kinda just blew me away w/ your mom being a christian and you're dad not. i can only imagine how hard that must be on you, like having the house always kinda split like that. er w/e. but idk that much about that, so i'll move on.

yeah, like, to me you've had awful experiences w/ christians. like those people that you've named off, they're fakes. phonies. God mos deff DOES love everyone. and i really can't stand it when people do proclaim to be of my faith and say crap like that. cause it's tottaly not true. just like God loves us, no matter what we do, we should love others the same. and if you eeveer meet anyone that says they hate blacks or gays you can tell them to screw off cause they're making their religion look hhorrible.

i go to a church about 20 minutes above me, in a city called sylvania. and like i love it so much. the people there are so freakin awesome and everyone's nice... BUT. that's the youth. and the 20somethings and 30somethings. the old people, on the other hand, are terrible at accepting change. and it's quite possible you've room into these kinds of people. and i don't think it's a "christian" problem. i think it's very much a "they're to old to change their mind, cause they've been raised to think that all their life". you know what i mean? like, ok, honestly, i could moss deff say my grandparents are racist. against japense (pearl harbor-yes, it's absolutly ridiculous)and some (althought they have gotten soo much better about this) black people. and i really do think it's because they were raised in a racist time and in a time where japense people were feared... just crap like that.

a real church IS open-minded to people ideas. and those that aren't are dead. at least, i think they are.

okay, now addressing why i write angst and sad. honestly, i think the world is a horrible place. i think it's full of soo much crap and pain and suffering. and you can see it everyday. on the t.v., in the paper, down the street or even in your own house. and it makes me so sad and that sadness and anger about things like that translates to poems that i couldn't even tell you what 3/4 are about. most are just words i've laced together that i think sound cool, you know? like, it's just a way to express myself. how i'm feeling or w/e.

a little more about me:i have a beautiful girlfriend named Erica who i've been on/off w/ for my whole high school career (4 yrs). i don't know exactly where i'd put myself in terms of like..clicks. i'm deff not a jock, or a band geek, or a goth, or punk... i just wear what i love. and that consists of... rings (3 on right hand, 1 on left) a watch (left hand) hair ties on right (yes, hair ties, don't ask why, i just like them, okay? lol) and a wwjd braclet on my ankel, cause i love ankel braclets. i used to have a toe ring too, but it broke at Cedar Points (Soak City, if you've ever heard of that). i almost allways wear t-shirts w/ writting on them. idk why, just cause i love it. i love tight jeans, and i HATE wearing underwear and socks, and so i never wear either unless i know i'm gonna change in front of people in band (we have to change uniforms in parking lots most of the time). um... i have well over 500 c.d's... i have an ipod (i love it, i call it "my baby" or "the motherload). i think "lost" on abc is freakin' awesome. oh! and i freakin' love dane cook. he's absolutly hilarious. i hate school, and i never, EVER work to my full abilities and i always spark note my english books, cause i hate being forced to read. (but in realality, i only read Harry Potter anyways) lol. i can't think of anything else to see man, sry it was so long. moss deff looking forward to talking to you later,

Chad

the way you write razorblade with the slashes, promises, you promised me- I hear this being whispered and then yelled. I don't know if you attended it to be darkly humorous at this part- "writing out angst on the internet" but I kind of thought it was. this is amazing.

I've never seen anything like this, but I absolutely love it! What an apt description/presentation of something so all-encompassing. Excellent work.

i know how that is. loved it! loved your wording and everything in between. keep it up!

lots of emotion. its very good. the way you've formatted it is creative too...makes you pay more attention to the meaning.