That's really touching, and I'm glad that you're feeling better. I hope you still are. I have a friend who's been struggling with anorexia for almost two years, and it's scary. So I hope you're better now. I'm sure you're beautiful.

Well, according to what you've said here you left a very long time ago, but I'm still going to write this on the offchance that you still might see it one day.

All I want to say, really, is thankyou so much for sharing this. You've conveyed the fact that eating disorders quite literally eat your personality away in such a real and honest way. I have recently been suffering with anorexia, but reading this was probably the most significant thing that made me realise I could save myself and stop the calorie counting and food weighing and the endless exercise , and that I could get my life back. I am still permanently freezing cold, and don't have much energy, but my weight has stablised now and I am eating properly. I just wanted you to know that by writing this you kind of saved me in a way... made me realise that I just had to stop. As weird as all this sounds, its true, I was really affected by this piece.

I also want to say how sorry I am that you had to suffer as much as you did, and that I really hope that you are healthy and having a good time now, and that you now have some real friends that support you. I really hope bulimia isn't a part of your life anymore.Just remember to stay strong. You've been so brave, and you should be really proud of yourself.

thanks.
Lizzy x

this is so emotionally raw it's almost physically painful to read, but its horror is a reality and that makes it a necessity to understand and absorb

i hope, wherever you are, that you're flourishing

So, I haven't reviewed anything for awhile or talked to you, and I know this has been up for awhile, but it's pretty awesome. I've been seeing someone for my bulimia, so... impressive. I cried.
Not to sound all weird, but I hope you're not writing from personal experience. I'm only 20, but I spent around 8 years of my life making myself throw up and whatnot... If you ever want to talk or anything, feel free to email me or something.
I hope whatever you're working on is on here soon, I'm definitely interested. : ) You always write beautifully. I'll hopefully be posting again soon; I'm trying to get back into the swing of things and finish up some old stuff.
Anyway, hope you're well.
-Beth

This was incredible. Thank you for sharing.

-Christine

I don't know if you'll ever read this, since it says you've left fictionpress. However, I'm going to leave a review anyway. I'm quite disheartened that you've decided to leave the site for good, as I think you're one of the better authors on here! I thought this work was brilliant, emotional, raw and arresting. As someone who has struggled with weight issues and has seen close friends experience similiar conflicts, I want to thank you for having the courage to put up something so personal. You've done a great job capturing the reality of eating disorders.

Thank you.

There's a lot of truth here

heartbreaking and disturbing and so intense.

good luck in the real world. they're not as nice as us out there. :)

Oh god, this makes me so sad.

Wow. Seriously. This is so just incredibly heartbreaking to read. I may come back to read more later, but right now...I have to take a break. I've never had an eating disorder, so I can't relate to any of this, but reading this, the way it's written...I feel like I am this girl. I can see everything so clearly. I don't even feel like I should be making constructive comments on this because it feels too personal to be doing so. I'm sad to hear that you're leaving fictionpress, because I really did enjoy reading your writing. You have great talent, and I hope you take advantage of that in whatever you choose to do. Be well. Keep writing! :)

I know you probably will never look at this website again, but I need to ask you a question:
Who wrote "Beauty in the Breakdown?" Because I've read it before, and now I can't find it. Some help would be appreciated!
WAK

What if you have half of those symptoms in the story?

This is incredible, because it is, honestly, the first story I've read that could represent such a huge aspect of me. I count calories all the time. I pick apart my food, and I estimate everything. The helplessness this girl feels every ** time you eat--it's real. The guilt, the shame, the irrational anger, the jealousy, everything. The emotions are there. I don't exercise too an extent as much as she does, because every time I DO exercise, I always gain weight. People tell me it's muscle weight, but in the end, weight is still weight, and I dread getting on my scale. It's not just a joking kind of fear; it is a phobia, an addiction. I hate it every time I step on the thing, but I HAVE to. I have to document how well I'm doing.

At this point, I am too overwhelmed with with the content of the story rather than the nitpicks of the grammar.

-Nghi

First off, your writing is beautiful. Sad it's the last thing you are posting. A few typos here and there, but hey, nobody is perfect ;)
Secondly, when I read this I was shocked about how serious it was. I honestly don't know a lot about eating disorders, and this has really opened up the spectrum for me. Thanks a lot.
Glad you are recovering. Hope your life is full of parties, guys and good food...

~waterdragon719

I'll be sad to see you go. This was amazing. I'm glad your in recovery now, I have no idea what it's like to be completely trapped, but I've been battling EDNOS for the last two years, and it...hurts, for lack of a better word.