I really like this poem, but u made a few grammatical errors:
You shouldn't have a comma in the line "You are a sick joke" being played on me by god" Also, in the line "You are the memoir i have long tried to loss", you may have meant to say lose. Also, in that line the word memoir doesn't really make sense. You may want to consider changing it to memory. Other than that it is a very good poem. Keep Writing!