Well, that was a difficult read because of it all being jammed up together. But I do understand why you did it that way.

Jumbled up thoughts, racing and bumping into one another like that ride at the amusement park, where you sometimes get caught between two cars and can't free yourself until "they" move, or someone bumps them. Argh. It's hard when our own "fate" (though I most definitely do not believe in fate) depends upon someone else's actions. Maybe I should say, when our own "happiness" depends on someone else's actions.

But that's when we have to give ourselves a good solid "kick," and realize that happiness lies between our own two ears, and that really, we shouldn't give anyone else that much power or responsibility as to hold our joy-- save the One who created us in the first place.

Okay, I think I'm done ranting... haha

Truly, Tourterelle