A minor spelling mistake 'comfortaing' is supposed to be 'comforting'.

Good poem.

~Twilight Starr~

i've been like that every day for the last few years. except the second to last line.
but it's a good poem. i love free prose.
nice job.

The first line is really good. You could stand to leave out "so if I don't... sense." I feel like it kind of weakens the piece as a whole, when you were starting to get these images going.

c'est vrais.

yeah, it makes sense. a word of warning though: this new thing you're trying is a only a bandaid solution. yes, if you don't try, you don't get hurt, but if you go for some time without getting hurt, you forget what it feels like and how to deal with it. and when you forget, you develop a fear of it, and that fear will cripple you. in this life pain is inevitable... but suffering is optional.

Yes.