I liked it, except I thought that "new golden leaf" would sound better than "golden new leaf". *shrugs*

I like it. It just feels true, like we all do that smometimes. Anyway, keep up the good work.

The line "and disgust that boils in your heart." kind of creeped me out because I got this nasty feeling from it. I can relate a lot though. I seriously loved it, great job.

Did you mean "solid" ground? (Or is that annoying to point out?)

When you said "close my eyes and jump" I immediately thought "oh no, suicide". But I'm glad it didn't turn out that way. Nice work as always.

-PQ

great poem (again) however i think you meant solid not soil ground.