Your first poem on this subject in quite a while. Very nicely done I must say. I know what you mean. I've been there and done that as you well know.

I like the lines

"My words have all failed me

My seams are coming undone

And in tired agitation

I let my cold blood run"

It really rings very well and it sends shivers right up my spine so kudos to you this is going on my favs