Heya Concerto. Yeah many people have expressed problems with long distance relationships. Sounds like it generally fails for the common people.

"The truth which you have tried to hide from me come alive and eats me." - rephrase perhaps
"My mind pounds against my skull, wanting to escape my stupidity in hoping that you would understand." - hopes and hoping

Ha, there's a part 2? I wonder. I guess we always never tell others our real motives behind these things. Oh well.