Thats a little bit tragic.
I love the axiom at the end. Its closes it well.

you never find them when i need you. christ. ain't that the way it goes. yesyesyes.

The third stanza made me shiver a little. However, I don't see the need for that last line.

-Christine

intense.
& even more than beautiful.

i adore the way you write.

damn it, i ** loved this.
your poetry is incredible and theres so much
imagery to it. the third stanza..favorite,
but the whole thing is just beautiful beyond
belif.

Fourth line, first word; should read too instead of 'to'.