Wow. Simply wow. This piece is amazing. At a first reading, it appeared flawless, and I was struck by the line, so douse my eyes in lilac dew. It was simply amazing. That line is perfection within itself. Then on reading it a second time, I found one flaw, and then another on a third rereading.

Then with the lines:
"And denial
Have dissipated"
The dissipated is much to drawn out, and does not fit with the line before it. I think you should find a word with one less syllable, that would make it flow much more evenly.

I think that the line, "a bruised ego", should be replaced with "And bruised ego"

You are the writer obviously, so it is your work and I have no power over it, but these are the things that I as the reader felt disrupted the perfection of the poem.

Simple yet complex. Straight-forward yet metaphoric. I like it and I know exactly what you feel.

Wow, i prefere poems that rhyme (i know they don't have to) but this was still really powerful. Obviously I don't really know exactly how you feel right now, but alot of it connected with the way I'm feeling. Keep writing!