Very nicely written, Irony...
The whole idea of being "fake" with God, that is never truly possible. It is possible to act fake towards others about God, but if God, being the being he is, saw you, he would see through whatever veil you might throw over yourself. Not saying I believe, but sometimes the most simple thing to do is speak, like you normally would to another human being. Cuss, rant, rave. Talk to him like you speak to a friend, beacuse that is the simplest way to be true to him. I'm saying all this, not truly knowing if you are still having this problem, but I hope you might take some to heart. Life, as many would like you to believe, will never be easy, it is a constant struggle uphill and always will be. It has been for me for the past 18 years of my life, and will continue to be...
As for you, I hope things may work out for you, and you may become as close to your God as you were before.

I enjoyed the writing, and I'm glad I was the first to review. Keep it up.

_Sincerely,

Vincent _