Wow. I can't think of anything else to say. Beautifully written!
~kiwikiwi

Hmm... this is remarkably similar to something I wrote about a similar situation (didn't put it on FP, though)... even with the month of November in it. I really like your use of the phrase "beginning of the end" though. It references a time when things were better, but without making the mood of the poem any better.

God; I know the feeling (or at least I think I do, then again I could be interpreting things wrong)
This is good venting btw.
So far that's what half my posts on this site are made up of:
Total rants translated into something (hopefully) more readable.
Anyways:keep it up! :)