 Just As I Am 2008-06-02 . chapter 1Oh, my. I am shaken and humbled by the sheer power, the intensity of this poem that reached out and claimed me before I knew what was what. The title threw me off completely. I thought this would be a seeking poem, questioning and looking for the answer to regret, to guilt. Boy was I wrong! "I have not known regret/It was never so simple for me."
The devastation and horror, the violence even, enthralled me so much because it calls to my own unshakeable, all-consuming guilt, a morass of regrets, weaknesses, and failures accumulated in a lifetime. I understand "A wall of failure stretching back as far as thought/Looming all about me/Crushing me down to nothing." I understand, too, "Myopic eyes, magnify my distended sense of guilt/While I sense more beyond this reality/Its visceral impact always leaves me blind to the light/Beyond this pain." These powerful, evocative descriptions feel like a pure reflection of my own knotted emotions; I don't just relate, I want to claim them. Thank you.
In short, I am just in awe. In awe of your talent and your grasp of language. You wield it with ease and fearlessness, like a second arm. Your poetry is always a pleasure to read; I often find myself tasting the words aloud, delighting in each caress, each thrum, and thinking to myself, THIS is exactly what language was made for! |