aw i totally understand how you feel. But the differences between us is that i would actually cry infront of everyone. m :(

aw. poor zabby-chan :( i know how you feel. why didn't she tell us sooner? but it's better to find out now than if she was to kill herself and then us find out then...
perhaps she didn't tell us because she didn't want us worried? or she thought we couldn't handle it? maybe we weren't close enough to her yet. I know I wasn't until this year.
but, personally, zabby-chan, why did she tell us? we can't do anything to help her. We can't do anything to make her stop. well, we can pray, but that doesn't do much if she doesn't want to stop.
I'll talk to you later, zabby-chan. and don't dwell on the bad things like this - think of better things.