I didn't want to have sex, but I closed my eyes and said ok. Just so I couldn't say I was raped.

I don't want to live here anymore.

My mom thinks I'm making all of her same mistakes,
And she may be right.

I'm 16 years old and I really don't know how to kiss.

I've only had one boyfriend in my life, and he destroyed my entire world for a year.

I'm rebuilding myself, and I'll probably lose my job because of it.

I will never forgive myself for not knowing my dad better before he died.

I cry on his birthday, every year.

I'm scared of the future...

But I'm going to live.

I will never change for someone again. Never.

It's my life, and I'm going to live it.

Start living yours, and don't hang onto your regret or your pain. Let it go. It's done, and nothing will change that fact.

quite a few of these match me, though not all are "secrets anymore".
hang in there.

I hate that my dad buys my love instead of saying sorry
^that hit home hardest though.

Hey there. I know exactly what you mean. We always try to stay out of trouble but then no one notices that we're just like everyone else; we need someone to show us love, to give us attention. And the worst part is that our friends mistaken that and think we just love being in the limelight and being the princess. They just can't see what made us do these things. I too wished someone else understood how we felt. Nice writing; I feel like writing one myself but thought against it since you've already expressed it for me too.