"I don't want to get better."

Yes. I've found myself saying that.

This collection is heartbreaking. It's beautiful. I love it. I commend you for posting it. It's so private. I feel honored that I get to read it.

This was an interesting change, it not being a letter. I also like how you keep saying this is fact when even if it is there is obviously so much emotion in this. Like you're trying to convince yourself there is no emotion. Powerful descriptions. Sad ending, which fits considering the subject matter.

I like the binge/purge thing, that was a nice contrast. The question you ask is really powerful as well.

"Covering their mouths and squeezing my eyes shut as I play pretend." Oh my God! This part was BRILLIANT! It's all about repressed feelings and displacement. WOW! :D

*hugs*

"I have your full memory." Beautiful line! I also liked the bit about the person being 'sacred.' That was excellent!

I really like the last line, since you end with missing a lot, that makes it much more powerful, though personally my mind wanted a comma after F*ck.

Again I love the last line. I also really like the idea of not forgetting ppl's flaws when they have passed because so often we do. Nicely done.

What I love about this is how universal it is. It can be about missing someone for any reason and almost anyone someone as well.

I didn't know you could pain windows shut. I like the last line a lot.

The beginning confused me, British and Chris I didn't know if that was two ppl or what. I did like the line "the biggest difference is that he's alive."

Y'know, I've moved so much in the past 4 years. This Saturday will be the second time I've moved in a month. I've discovered my entire life fits into 4 trash bags and 3 boxes. This one really struck home in a different way than usual. Particularly with the line "I decided to do a binge and purge with my excess." Hit me right here *taps over heart*

Thank you. You've given me a lot to think about with your sharing :)

"Is it sad that I can fit so much into something so little?" Great line! :) Powerful!

Sounds almost like a lil bit of closure on this sad chapter in your life. But I'm glad that you feel that it'll be alright if you don't ever forget him/her (?). Sometimes it's okay to hold onto those that mean so much to you (:

): So sad...I wish there was some way I could help console you.