The feeling is great.
"How do you warm my soul, with your uncaring gaze?" Beautiful line. :)

The first three lines are perfect. The repetition of "Beautiful disaster, my apocalyptic love" works very well. You are right about losing the "flow" somewhere, though. There are good lines intermixed with less well formed ones. Perhaps this should be even shorter. It could still express the same thought very well (this coming from an amateur who writes haiku.) It is clear that you have talent and a great sense of how words can work together. I believe you when you say you just lost interest partway through. Definitely keep writing.

Peace, Doc