Charcoal and chocolate syrup, yeah, sounds gross. Yeah, I hate drinking supposed flavored medicin, though I had this orange medicine that wasn't bad, not that I'd enjoy drinking it again or anything. I prefer pills, one swallow and you don't have to worry.

Glad you updated, always love to check this out.

Wow, you really went all out on this, didn't you?

I wonder if you actually started crying when you wrote this, I mean, because you were so far in the lie that you started believing it yourself.

Pretty twisted. Too bad your life isn't anything unique or special... at least you wouldn't cop out this shit then.

I just spent the last three hours reading through your story, and it was so emotional, sometimes I don't know how you cope. But you must always remember that our Lord Jesus Christ is there for you, even in your darkest days He will stand by you, offering comfort and He will listen to your worries.

He took on your sins, so you wouldn't have to. Remember that.

Jesus loves you. Even in your darkest hour, He is there. Do not lose hope but bear your cross as He bore His. Let His Word and His love be your guide and you will not stumble. Take heart, friend, for He is coming for you.

Jesus loves you. Even in your darkest hour, He is there. Do not lose hope but bear your cross as He bore His. Let His Word and His love be your guide and you will not stumble. Take heart, friend, for He is coming for you.

Jesus loves you. Even in your darkest hour, He is there. Do not lose hope but bear your cross as He bore His. Let His Word and His love be your guide and you will not stumble. Take heart, friend, for He is coming for you.

Jesus loves you. Even in your darkest hour, He is there. Do not lose hope but bear your cross as He bore His. Let His Word and His love be your guide and you will not stumble. Take heart, friend, for He is coming for you.

Jesus loves you. Even in your darkest hour, He is there. Do not lose hope but bear your cross as He bore His. Let His Word and His love be your guide and you will not stumble. Take heart, friend, for He is coming for you.

I love your metaphor at the end there, nice one!

yep, still reading

I luv ur story! But, it makes me wanna cry to read about what you have 2 go through. I feel so bad 4 u!

I know its been 3 yr. and I hope you are doing better. I can relate to your story. I have a mental illness and have been hospitalized numerous times. I am taking medication still; but I'm learning new ways of coping. I am more open with people. I am working on my master's degree in counseling.

Again, I hope you are at a better place in your life.

Keep fighting!

I've read all the journals you posted, and I thought they were very insightful. They provide an excellent glimpse into your life. Hope you're doing...okay?

Wow. That's quite a story. wow. thats all I can say.

Nice :)