Wow. It flowed so fast, and I didn't want it to end... I'll try to decipher it while I recover. It seems like the narrator is mourning his life as he dies, and then begins to dwell on his wrongdoings, and how he may be not good enough or worse than his killer?..."my darkness, it smothers your light"
Anyway I don't really want to try to pick it apart because it is so melancholy and wonderful. You told a great story.