you need time to overcome that fear, understandably.

that's sweet. :)

oh no D:
hunny, you should never be fearful of peoples' opinions when it comes to your writing. i'm still learning to do that. the reason i write my pillowbooks is because, in a way, they save me.
i hope you can learn to get over your fear. because natalie, you're strong. and beautiful. and a talented writer.
your pillowbooks should be about YOU. YOUR feelings. not what anyone else thinks. ** the other people.
i love you, girlie. i'm glad fictionpress brought me to you and the rest of the new albany gang.
:]

My only reaction is this: Writing [public] pillowbooks may be what gets you over your fears. It seems like you're trying to avoid writing at all. :I

You will never get over your fears if you evade them.

Trust me, I've learned the hard way.

I love you as a friend, though. c:

I completely understand you - I had this "feeling" in March which was why I didn't update but I have decided to continue. I hope you will still write other things, though, because you are extremely talented, and your pillowbooks have been an utter inspiration to read - you are truly an amaxzing person who has been through a lot, which have made you stronger :)
Good luck with your private pillow books
~Ben

Ah, I can relate.
That's kind of the reason I NEVER update.
I'll start writing a chapter and then I'll stop, look at what I wrote, and think, "God, what am I talking about?" and close it off.
Or, I'll write something that I DO mean and actually DOES makes sense and I'll sit there and think, "Oh Jesus, what will so-and-so think what they read that?" and close it off.
Happens pretty often.

I think you should definitely continue your pillow book, but don't put it on fictionpress; then it'll be so much better because it'll be less about what you need to say for other people and more about what you need for yourself; you won't have to hold stuff back and you can just get it all out. you know?
because I think as a whole the whole pillow book idea, is in general pretty helpful.

I did enjoy reading yours, and everyone else's pillow books though; I'll miss it, haha.
:B

Mm, yeah
It's hard to do something public all for yourself
Haha
You don't need to be afraid of me
I won't hurt you

Damn, now what am I going to do on the internet? This is the only thing... New... That I could find on here. I'm getting closer and closer to wanting to be Amish. Life in the fields with the cows, the corn, the sheep, the hay. No technology. Nothing to worry about. Your entire life laid out in front of you and you don't have to think about it. A lifetime of mindless tasks to occupy your time. ** you, interwebs. You've got so much potential, but your just so full of **. Why isn't someone doing something about this tragedy? You know, aside from the piracy and the **. That all that's left! Internet, you've been with me a long time, and brought me much joy, but I think it's about time I start reading some more ** books. Tschüs!

awh, i am quite irreplacable, aren't i? xD
no, just kidding.
i loved this entry.
and you are an amazing girl.

LET IT BE KNOWN THAT YOU HAVE DEPLORABLE SPELLING.
:D

i love you.

Oh! Oh! That last one! I said that! I said that!
...YAY
|D

D'aw. This is one of your best entries, Natalie R. So... GENUINE.

THIS is what I miss about pillowbooks, even mine.

:/ I'm pretty sure Kayti doesn't think any of that
And Kayla either
:/
I love you sweetie

:\
i don't really know what to say about any of this. i wouldn't worry about alexis if i were you.
but anyway.
my period started yesterday too xDD but the bad thing is that my party is on saturday and it's a pool party, and there's NO way in HELL that i'm sticking a tampon uppa mah crotch. XD

You want to know what I thought when you said that your relationship with Ryan is the only thing going right?

"...What about violin?"

No joke.

And I am sorry for having to say this, because I know pillowbooks are for ranting and making your feelings known, but Natalie, ** about it won't change anything unless the people you're talking about actually WANT to change. :|

I love you dearly as a friend, though. I really do. I just figured that maybe you'd like to read what I'm thinking so you wouldn't assume.