That's not good at all...
Maybe you should find a way to take it from him without him knowing. He'll just think he lost it.

Your mother was wrong. You did the right thing. Well, morally anyway.

I think quite a few of the same things. It's so much easier to just tell people everything's fine, nothing's wrong than it is to tell them how you really feel.

I remember you said something in Chapter 46 about how Rain is basically your alter-ego of sorts...and then something about Dissociative Identity Disorder in chapter 54.

Maybe Rain's one of your other personalities and Rain wrote that poem? Where do you keep the stuff you write for fictionpress? (Like with me I keep all my fictionpress stuff in a well hidden folder on the computer) Check wherever it is you keep your writing, because maybe you technically did write those poems.

I thought that was depersonalization?
Or I don't know--I've always gotten derealization
and depersonalization confused. They seems oh so
similar on paper.

Regardless, I've felt that a lot before.
It is rather unsettling.

Then don't be friends with her. You obviously don't need her in your life if she's going to treat you like that. You have plenty of other friends who treat you way better than she does.

I'm so sorry that happened. Stupid bastard should be burned alive.
Just, try to ignore his existence, as hard as that may seem. It's really the only thing you can do if you see him everyday.

It's okay to not want to have sex with him. And the fact that he's willing to not push you into doing it just proves how much he really does care about you.
If you don't want to have sex yet, then don't. There's nothing that says you have to have sex with a person after being with them for however long. You do it when you're ready.

i agree.
a person like that would get on my nerves too.

it is selfish.
but don't feel bad--all humans are selfish when it comes to stuff like this.

Wow, that sounds like an amazing sight.

rain, you have to think of the present.
he has you now. he loves you now.
he might have loved that girl but it's over.
he has you.

you never forget memories. you only let them go.
you have to accept that it happened and then you have to let it go.

I'm not sure if this is advice, but it's my opinion. But first, for a story...
I was in a similar situation (sorta still kinda am). My best guy friend started ignoring me for a while for his girlfriend then after they broke up, we became good again. Then a new girl came along and I just...couldn't forget.
Now, we're no longer friends. At all. (His choice though.) He won't even acknowledge my existance.
And part of me thinks we had our chance, a couple of years ago. But neither of us was brave enough to make that first move to become something more...

Point of all that was, I couldn't just forget what had happened and move on. I was still hurt that he choose her (someone he had only known for a few months) over me (who had been there through everything with him for almost three years). I couldn't take the betrayal. I would constantly pick fights with him just to see if he would stay like he promised.
I don't think you will ever be able to forget what he did entirely. I think it's going to be really hard to get over all that pain he caused you, even if you're happy with him right now.

But if you want to be with him, you could possibly forgive him and move on.
I said (or wrote) my two cents, now it's all up to you.

Whoa, creepy.

Hm, that's pretty interesting.