All I could say is wow. Writing something like this takes a lot of courage, I think, because it's the same as allowing yourself to linger into the state when you most feel vulnerable.

This describes exactly how I feel when I fall into depression, but it's not so bad because afterwards when I recover, I look at my canvas and there's a masterpiece that I could only produce when I'm in that state. The same goes when I write. To quote Stephen King: "Writing does not cause misery; it is born of Misery."