Yes, it does sound like you're depressed. You should definitely talk to an adult about this. Ideally, I'd tell you to discuss it with your parents, but if you don't think they'd listen, talk to another adult you trust like a teacher, counsellor, or a relative. If you think you need help, I'm sure you can get it. So yeah. that's what I think you should do. You don't have to listen to me because I'm some random person on the internet. Also, I like your story. :)

I'm turning 14 on Chris Brown's birthday, and as of then, it will be 6 months since I've cut. - I still have my scars, even.

The thing is that depression isn't permanent; it's not like autism that stays with you your whole life, although in a way it will, in ways you won't believe. Depression is a black hole of torture that sucks you in, and if you struggle to get out, you get hurt. I told my friends about my depression and habit (actually, they sort of found out the latter. -), and my best friend told a guidance counselor for me. I went to a psychologist for one visit ONLY because the school required it. And now I'm trying to involve myself with extracurricular activities and get away from my awesome Internet friends. .

I have an older friend whom I met on an addictive anime fantasy MMORPG who was having parent-family-schooland-friend issues. She had depression (I think) and cut herself, wrote a depressing novelette, and composed the most heartbreaking songs ever.

I prescribed the both of us to the Butterfly Project.

She was diagnosed a couple of months ago with mild Asperger's, and recently, she's become bulimic. But I know I've changed her (she has a boyfriend!), and I changed too. I have 5,000 emails and the title of Dr. Philosophy for proof.

What I'm trying to say is that some things can't be changed. But it's up to you to adapt (real corny ).

Anyway, I'm sorry for my Dr. Phil episode, and I'll be making an account to PM you.

Be strong, "Steph." 3

I know that what you're going through must be very difficult: just remember that it could always be worse. Your friend who cuts herself? I have that problem too. Try to be there for her, because if she's anything like the people I know who have that habit then all she wants is somebody to listen to her. Try to make her smile. Ask her if she wants to hang out some time. And, Steve, if you ever need help feel free to drop me a PM. I'm no therapist, but I might have some suggestions from my own past experiences. As for Seth, if you really find him creepy then don't convince yourself that you have a crush on him. It won't be worth it. And Craig? Be his friend. Because eventually, he might realize that, "Hey, Steve's pretty great!" Just hang in there. I know that it seems like you're very depressed right now, but I promise you that it will get better. It's not going to go away without a lot of work. Just try to focus on the positive and everything'll turn out fine! Good luck, I know you'll get through.

You're not bi-polar. Just making that clear! You're just overly stressed with limited ways to vent. Out bursts of anger is normal. I'm short-tempered and I was misdiagnosed with bi-polar because of it. But, you know yourself best. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise!
Regarding your friend that cuts, try not to pry information out of her. It seems like you both need a person who can really listen to your words and anguish. I think if you make a move to talk to her about something you both share in common, that could be a mutual conversation to let both of you gradually open up to each other.
Also, keep in mind that if her cutting gets worse (deeper, longer, more frequent wounds) tell an adult you trust. She most likely will not seek help on her own. (Cutting is self-medicating in a negative way. Not a good long-term remedy!)
I'm quite knowledgeable on this subject, so if you want, message with any concerns...I'll listen if you want...

I know how you feel. Except I am suicidal. I think I took the same test as you because it had all the same results. I got a 79. I didnt even think it was possible for it to go that high but apparently. Anyway if music affects you like it affects me try listening to something that doesnt have too many lyrics or slow rythms.

What a weird dream! I really hope basketball gets better. I have a question, though. If you didn't want to play, why did you try out? Lol. Silly girl. But, hopefully things get better!

Dang girl! You have a lot going on in your life. :c Have you ever thought of meditating? Oh, and aren't internet people the best? Just be careful!

My parents are the same way. I dated a black guy, and they all but nailed me to a cross. I know it sucks, but sometimes you have to do you, and ignore them. Anyways, I'm glad you're feeling better.

Dang, I'm sorry about making basketball. (Weird thing to say, right?) Maybe you just have a really big crush on Kyle? I'm sorry your mom didn't notice you crying. That's pretty suckish. :c I love all three of those songs, but I can understand why they depress you. Once again, if you ever need to talk, I'm always here. c:

I love Semi-Charmed life! Wake me up, not so much. Too repetitive and poppy for me. Plus, I can't stand Chris Brown. I am glad you have your leggo people. LOL at trying not to make basketball. I can't stand basketball, either. Most boring sport, ever. Anyways, hope all is well!

Hm, it sounds like your brother is lazy. I see your point about him doing his own work. You shouldn't feel guilty, dear. It is HIS essay. You have your own things to deal with. I'm concerned as to why your parents haven't noticed your depression. Maybe you should talk to them about your feelings?

I think it's nice that you and your friends are doing a nice contest. c: Hm, if you really think you're depressed hun, then you should maybe go to the doctor? They have meds for that. (Not being mean, just trying to help.) Being in love with a fictional character is totally normal. I think? I'm in love with Ron Weasley. Anyway, if you ever need to talk I'm here. I've been dealing with depression most of my life.

At the beginning of the year, I felt remarkably similar to how you do now. I was depressed-sometimes I still am-because someone really close to me decided that he would go off and try to be popular. It didn't work, but something in our friendship broke and I can't forgive that.

You need to remember that depression comes and goes. You won't be like this forever. I made a lot of mistakes during that phase, ao just tr to keep a clear head. Keep venting angst into this story, DO NOT BOTTLE IT UP, and remember that God is looking after you.

Semi charmed life is an ironically uplifting song, considering its about a drug addict. Try "never let you go". Music always cheers me up when I'm sad...

I had the same symptoms as you and the feeling finally went away when I found a real goal and purpose in my life. I started repeating in my head all the things I wanted to do for myself - like go to A university or be really good at swimming - and decided that I would focus on that. Do things that make you happy- but real, fulfilling happy, not like temporary. I also find that when I have too much time to think, the symptoms occur.

And if someone ignores you, I suggest confronting that person and talking it out. If they're too cowardly to explain, they're not worth your time.