Yes! I know exactly how you feel! The "You're killing me" part was so shocking, and heartbreaking :( Great job!

I can't say I relate directly (for I'm the youngest, which is not as much of a picnic as it may seem), but I do understand the expectation that come with being the "example." Being the oldest is a tough ride, but I'm sure you'll get through it. Stay strong- and great writing style, by the way.