honey, if anyone could figure out guys, I think they deserve the nobel prize. I've got no advice for you, but I can tell you I've been exactly where you are. A few times. And I still have no clue what to do about it. Anyway, this was written really well. You've got a great style goin on. :)

wow, so that's how you really feel?

i say go for it, if you really want him tell him that you like him. you never know he might just surprise you. and even if it doesn't work out, at least you tried and you can stop beating yourself up about it