Look at the stars, how I wish I was up there instead of being down here on
this pathetic planet I call Earth; but I am down here wishing I was up
there trying to avoid the pain, the pain of loosing you. Sadly, I am still
down here suffering, hurt in pain. Right at the heart every time I see your
name or even hear it. My heart would stop beating for that moment hoping
that the world would end and leave me in pain. My chest would feel a sudden
pain but I can do nothing. I look upon my hands as tears fell on them. The
hands that made scratches on my skin to forget the pain. Scratches that
bleeds and soon turn to scars but still the pain in my heart did not stop.
Its as though my heart has been slashed through but the wound would never
become a scar. It will bleed and bleed, the blood would not stop flowing
like a river; the pain would always be there. A million times I try to
forget the pain; try to forget you but the pain is still there. You are
still in my heart, I love you so much and you don't know about it. Again
and again I try to tell you but the words, I still love you, does not come
out. Instead it becomes a whisper that fades away with the wind that blows.
I am afraid, afraid of rejection.