This is an original story, all characters belong to me Shera Crawler 007.  Please don’t use without my permission or I will be forced to feed you to the evil purple marmots in my head for dinner. Hmmm, otherwise this is a slash story, there will be man on man situations. It is also a story with violence and nookie in it. (though I don’t think the nookie will be incredibly graphic, I’m not very good at actually writing play by play nookie scenes)

You may have seen earlier versions of this story up in the Key Archive (as an unofficial key) and other places as an Untitled story. I have revised that story, no major changes but I think I’ve improved the grammar and things like that now. At least I can read it now without cringing.

I’ve finally decided on a working title (this may change later if I find something better).  I’ve decided on Terrible Lie, from the NIN song by the same title.  If you’re like me and like to know why an author picked a certain title, email me, or IM me on Yahoo, I’d be more than happy to tell you *G*. 

The lyrics (if you care to know) are:

hey God

why are you doing this to me?

am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?

why am i seething with this animosity?

hey God

i think you owe me a great big apology.

terrible lie

terrible lie

terrible lie

terrible lie

hey God

i really don't know what you mean.

seems like salvation come only in our dreams.

i feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.

hey God

can this world really be as sad as it seems?

terrible lie

terrible lie

terrible lie

terrible lie

don't take it away from me.

i need someone to hold on to.

don't take it away from me.

i need someone to hold on to.

hey God

there's nothing left for me to hide.

i lost my ignorance, security and pride.

i'm all alone in a world you must despise.

hey God

i believed your promises, your promises and lies.

terrible lie

terrible lie

terrible lie

terrible lie

you made me throw it all away.

my morals left to decay.

how many you betray.

you've taken everything.

terrible lie.

my head is filled with disease.

my skin is begging you please.

i'm on my hands and knees.

i want so much to believe.

i need someone to hold on to.

i need someone to hold on to.

i need someone i need someone.

i need someone to hold on to.

i give you everything.

my sweet everything.

hey God

i really don't know who i am.

in this world of piss