10/18/02 I wrote this after having a moment to think

Featuring the Ways of Society

I use to be happy
I use to act the way I wanted to
I use to be innocent.

But I learned the ways of society
I learned that people get hurt everyday
I learned that no one wants to see your unhappiness
I learned that people act happy when they really aren't
I learnt to use a facade.

I can't take it anymore!
I just want to scream!
to cry!
I want to let go.

Maybe...
if I open up the pain will wash away
Maybe I'll be granted the release I've needed for so long

Or maybe...
if I open up
they'll just ignore me.

I've been ignored my whole life
and I've been misunderstood for half that
So opening up is going to change that?

I can't believe I just thought that
I guess I'm more stupid then I thought...