A/N: This is about me knowing my friend’s long time love was dumping her before she knew herself and how I wanted to prepare her for the emotional death she would go through but I could never break her innocence. And how I felt like a terrible friend.

I’m sorry Krista…this is what I wanted to tell you….

Before You Decay.

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Turn on him.

Stab him in the back.

You know you want to.

Just go on and get it over with.

Just please end this.

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I know that you know

All this is just so fake.

How it goes on I don’t know.

I’m tired of watching you die.

I’m tired of consoling you when you cry.

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It’ll be worse.

The longer you let it alone.

The longer you are dead.

The more your life decays.

The more your wounds fester.

More for the maggots to eat away.

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Do it.

Before he kills you.

Try and kill him.

Let him bleed let him die, decay and fester.

Just help the process for you go faster.

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Emotionally dead.

Numb. Dead. Decay.

No don’t go running back.

He never loved you.

You’ll just die again.

Again and again.

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Paranoia runs around my mind.

All I wanted to say I couldn’t say.

I couldn’t talk to you.

Too much innocence.

You never ever knew.

You never expected this.

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You never ever knew.

What it’s like to be emotionally dead.

You never really knew.

Just quite what happened.

Just quite what I went through.

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“Now you know. This is what it feels like.”