OBLIVIOUS TO MY PAIN

They close their eyes and look away
Oblivious to my pain

I wear a mask to hide the pain
I do this oh so well

I'll never let them see the tears
I shed when their backs are turned

A small smile an everything is well
I've fooled them once again

I am an actress in the play called my life
Each day is a new and hurtful scene

How much longer can I go on like this
Just how many more smiles can I fake

My thoughts drive me to the brink of insanity
Memories push me into that void

Running, screaming, turning about in the darkness
My mind is a tortured mess

Everything I've ever craved in my life
I've forever been denied

A gentle touch, a loving family
Friends to lean on, someone to love

Is everything I've wanted just too much to ask for
Or something all together out of my reach

I find new ways to handle this aboination
It's apparent from the scars littering my body

I don't know how much longer I can go on this way
I wish it would all just go away

I want to let it all go
I'm so afraid though

So I live my life from day to day
Wallowing in this pain