Daddy

By: Neko-chan

A/N: When I was seven years old, my father was in a car accident that left him paralyzed from the waist down. Lately, I've been talking to a counselor about how I felt about what happened and all, and my feelings finally came out. It's really hard for me to express them verbally, so I decided to write a poem.

Daddy, Why don't you

hug me anymore?

Daddy, Why don't you

kiss me anymore?

What happened to the nights where

we would go out into the desert

and just look up into the sky,

seeing the stars.

What happened to the hugs?

What happened to the kisses?

What happened to the thing that I miss the most:

the "I love you"s?

Why won't you let me

help you?

It hurts seeing you

struggle so much.

I just want to help.

I love you, that's why.

It pains me to see you

hurt and trying.

I'm so proud of you, Daddy.

You remade yourself

into a better man.

But you were always Daddy.

You were the one

that I always looked up to.

You were the one

that I always came to.

But now...

you don't want me anymore.

You try to distance

yourself from me.

Daddy?

Why have you

left me all...

alone?

Daddy, what happened to all

the hugs and kisses?

Daddy, you're still the same to me.

Yes, you're hurt.

You'll always be hurt.

But I'm hurt, too.

It hurts to see you everyday.

It hurts to see you struggle with...

everything.

It hurts to see YOU hurt.

I miss the kisses.

I miss the hugs.

I miss you wrapping

your arms around me.

Daddy, I miss you.

Daddy, I love you.

And, Daddy, you'll

always be the

same man to me.