Even from the bottom, it seemed a very tall tree

With limbs stretching straight into the sky.

But still I wrapped my courage around me,

And decided to climb it, however high.

In the daylight it seemed so easy,

Each branch, so simple and straight.

I smiled as I swung up easily,

Certain it was nothing short of fate.

But now darkness has fallen,

And the paths have so many twists and turns.

Up or down? Left or right?

I don’t even know for what my heart yearns.

These branches are too twisted,

There are no longer signs.

And I am starting to wonder

If everything I relied on were no more than fragile vines?

Everything is so clouded,

The branches no longer seem so near.

The only thing not an uncertain illusion,

Is my very audible fear.

I am at the edge

Of the last of the large supports.

From here on out there are only twigs,

And no more last resorts.

I can jump – maybe.

But what if I should fall?

Would the others just laugh?

Would they care at all?

One thing is for sure:

I cannot stay here.

Already the winds nip at me,

Laughing at my fear.

The gap is wide; the fall is deep,

Yet somehow I do not care.

About the watchers – about the laughter –

Or even the wind rustling my hair.

How is it possible to conquer something so endless,

When I am so utterly alone?

Nothing but darkness and fog,

No light, no guide, and nothing to call my own.

How do I even know if this is really a jump,

And just another small step?

If those gone before called this easy,

How will I face the challenges I have not encountered yet?

If I stay right here,

I’ll never have to find out.

I can stay on the parts I have already explored,

And never have to worry about any doubts.

If only there were more light,

If only I were not so confused,

If only someone would come to guide me across,

If only this path were more used.

But no beam of light can break through these clouds,

And no one can guide me now.

Yet, I know no matter how confusing the fog is,

I must break through somehow.

Suddenly, I decide to gather myself around me,

My hopes, my love, my dream,

My loneliness, my sorrow, my anger,

And everything in between.

With all my might I cast it before me,

This light that glows within.

I have finally found my guiding light,

Finally, my leap can begin.

Will I land? Will I fall?

I do not know, for I have not landed yet.

But whatever happens,

I know I will have no regrets.

I know it is a very tall tree,

Which might not even lead into the sky.

But where ever it leads me, that is where I’ll be,

For I have decided to climb it, however high.