A/N: I only ever write poems when I'm frustrated, and yesterday was a more- than-usual frustrating day with my dad. Hence, the poem. Actually, I feel like this most of the time, I just resigned myself to writing it down.

"Trying to Love You"

Why do you look at me that way?

Like you don't believe a word I say.

What do you think I do all day?

Watch TV and play on the computer,

Lay around and read books about Harry Potter?

Do you think I can't take care of myself

Or get anything done without your supervision?

Do you think that we're the perfect family?

Because we're not, we only seem that way.

I can't talk to you; I've tried.

I told you how I wanted to be an actress.

How I saw an angel in my room.

You didn't believe me; you thought I was crazy.

But know what?

My friends have seen her too.

You're not supposed to be hypocrites.

You're supposed to listen and understand.

But you say you believe God can do anything

Then you don't believe me when I talk about seemingly impossible things.

It's not impossible for pigs to fly.

But if one flew over your head,

Would you pretend not to see it,

Because pigs can't fly?

Why is your mind so closed?

What made you think this way?

I tried telling you that I wasn't learning with the new teacher.

It's still true.

But you just nodded.

I could tell what you were thinking.

I know you pretty well.

What you really thought was that I had hardened my heart.

And refused to accept the new teacher

Because I was convinced the old one was better.

Know what?

He was.

You think you know me better than I know myself.

But the fact is that you don't know me at all.

Surprise?

I don't think you love me.

Even though you say you do.

When you love someone

You encourage and comfort them.

There are so many definitions of love

And you pretend to match every one.

I feel like I have to watch my back

Because if I screw up,

God knows what you'd do.

You say that you love me.

And with God, it's possible that you do

But I don't think you love me.

And I'm having a hard time loving you.

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I'd feel great if I knew that I wasn't the only one who felt this way. Please review!