Close the blinds

Turn off the lamp

The light

Offends my eyes

Lock the door

And leave me alone

Here in the dark

Cause that's

What my world

Is now

Dark

Everything

Now, forever

And always

I want

To scream

Throw things

Against

The wall

Smash windows

Break down doors

I want to

Rip

Everything

Into tiny

Pieces

And scatter

Them

To the ends

Of the earth

I want

To hear

The shrieking

Of the wind

Hide in them

My own

Screams

I want

The clouds to

Bow down

Close to the

Earth

And weep anguish

With me

Wash everything

Away. . .

I want

But I can't

I just

Sit

And stare

I can't move

My arms and

Legs will not

Obey me

I am

Paralyzed

By this

Emptiness

There is

A tiny

Voice

Shrieking

Clawing

At my insides

Trying to get

Out

Away

Screaming in

Horror

At a hurt

Like the whole

Of everything

Could not

Begin to

Know

Worse

If anything

Could be

Is that

Of course it's

My fault

So many things

I said that

I'd do

So many things

Left

Undone

The extra mile

Unwalked

The extra lengths

Not gone to

The extra yards

Not fought for

I said I'd

Do anything

But I didn't

Do anything

The sun is

Dark

In my eyes

There is no

Light

That is not

Dimmed

There is nothing

That pierces

This numbness without

Nothing that

Could silence

This voice

Eating me

Alive from

Within

Dark and cold

This is my world

Numb and empty outside

Screaming in death throes inside

This is me

Without you