When I see you I just go blank

I never though anyone had the power to do that

I wish you didn’t

Wish I could see you and hate you with everything I have

But I can’t

It scares me to think that you could hate or love me as much as I do you

I wish you would just be another person

Not have to worry

Not have to think

Not have to do anything

Just live

But I can’t

I can’t live without thinking of you

I relate everything some how to you

I hate you

I wish you weren’t here

I wish you were gone

But then I think to myself

Without you I wouldn’t be who I am today

I wouldn’t be who I will be tomorrow

Next week or next year

And for that I thank you

For I love myself

I wish I could say this to your face

But I fear what you might think of me after

I wonder what you think of me now

I love you

And no matter how much I hate it

I can’t not love you

Because if I did

I would have to hate myself